Is this what you call love?

I know I'm going to lose you eventually, and maybe it'll be soon. But, I can't let my mind focus on the next wave. I need to live in today.

I'm having quite a difficult time handling my relationships lately. My anger keeps seeping in along with a bit of jealousy. Some of my friends keep hiding, and I have watched a few friendships die. I know who I want to be, but I don't know who I want us to be.